Getting Rid of It

"The world you perceive is a world of separation... you have no control over this world you made. It is not a world of will because it is governed by the desire to be unlike God, and this desire is not will. The world you made is therefore totally chaotic, governed by arbitrary and senseless 'laws,' and without meaning of any kind. For it is made out of what you do not want, projected from your mind because you are afraid of it." -- A Course in Miracles

Regular readers will remember this quote from Thursday's blog. It has been sticking with me, showing all the exceptions I seem to have in mind to its truth. "Without meaning of any kind" is a pretty unequivocal statement. Surely there is meaning in my new-born grandson's smile. Surely there is meaning in my study of Truth. Surely there is meaning in... fill in the blanks.

A Course in Miracles is full of what Jeshua ben Joseph called 'hard sayings.' He always said, "He who has ears to hear, let him hear." In other words, it is not for the wishy-washy seeker of truth. You either are willing to hear, or you are not. You can't have it both ways. A man cannot serve two masters.

The good news is that we only need a small willingness that what we regarded as meaningful be wrong. ACIM never says the real world is meaningless. It says that the projected world we call home is meaningless, chaotic, and unstable. Who could argue with that, really? Even what we most love can morph in an instant into ash. Is this meaning? Could this be love? No wonder we walk around with such fear. Like a Halloween fun-house, the projected world is an ever-shifting illusion that is totally unpredictable, and pretty darn scary.

I can see how even the things I think I want in this world are based on what I don't want. I can see how meaningless this makes even moments of pleasure, that are as fleeting as a cloud passing across the sky. I can see how getting rid of Oneness and finding uniqueness and specialness is the great preoccupation of the world. An entire universe based on the attempt to get rid of what IS. If this is not an insane and meaningless preoccupation, then I don't know what is.

So what IS meaningful? A Course in Miracles reassures us, "God did not create a meaningless world." The problem lies with our preoccupation with the meaningless. We simply won't be still and leave a clear and open space for what is Real and True to be revealed as effortlessly present, as Meaning ItSelf. We simply won't let go of what we think we know and who we think we are long enough to SEE what IS.

My grandson is no less precious without my story about him... he is more precious, more real, because I am experiencing Being directly, rather than through a projected filter or story. My search for Truth is no less comforting without making it all noble and spiritual... it is more precious, more real, because I am experiencing Being directly, and the journey is its own delight, without making it anything special at all. The world is more precious as we realize we were mistaken in our projections... and that getting rid of it is not possible. It is our very Self.

"I am the Holy Home of God Himself. I am the Heaven where His Love resides." -- A Course in Miracles