The Need to Do Something

"You were created to create, neither to see nor to do." -- A Course in Miracles

I am noticing that after I meditate, there is a stronger feeling of needing to do something, to be something... all these stories that arise in the mind that are linked to maintaining the story of 'me.' Not that this is bad or wrong. I am simply noticing. And of course, all the stories that arise for me of survival and security and approval are universal, archetypal stories. We are all daily re-inventing the story of 'me.'

What I see is that in the moments without these stories, a different way of being exists. It doesn't require struggle or effort, and there is no judgment or fear. It is still pretty much business as usual, but with a continual undercurrent of joy and unbroken wholeness. And the instant the habitual story of 'me' arises, this anxious need to do something is a part of it... probably the part that feeds the closed feedback loop that appears to be 'me.'

When I question these universal compulsions and truly want to see what lies beneath the illusion of it all, I find only beauty, peace, and endless joy like a blanket of Being that includes all of it, all of us.

What do we fear the most? That maybe there really is nothing at all to do or to become. That maybe we already are.

"There is a Being, whose name I do not know, Who surrounds everything with Its Love like a garment. It is constantly coming and going, yet does not on this account suffer. I do not know Its name, and so I call it Tao, The Way... and I rejoice in Its Presence." -- The Tao te Ching